Thursday, November 19, 2009

Ravensway

The holidays are fast approaching. Company is coming. I haven't even started to clean. I'm finishing a portion of the book WordSpeak: His Word, Your Voice that I decided to share with you instead of talking about holiday woes and wonders. It's a story about the wonders of obeying the Lord. Hope you enjoy it. . .

The Power of Obedience


You will drink from the brook, and I have ordered the ravens to feed you there. So he did what the LORD had told him. The ravens brought him bread and meat in the morning and bread and meat in the evening, and he drank from the brook. (I Kings 17:4-6)


For several weeks, we had been batting about the lessons we had learned at the most recent CBMC Family Camp. Our Bible teacher, Maj. Ian Thomas taught a beautiful picture of faithful obedience from 1 Kings 17, when Elijah first came on the scene. Each time the word of the Lord came to Elijah asking him to do some thing, Elijah faithfully “went and did according to the word of the Lord.”

God sent Elijah to a widow who was struggling to feed her son during the awful three year famine that Elijah had pronounced upon the land. When Elijah came to her, he asked her for some bread and water, which she would be hard-pressed to supply. She explained that she had only a handful of flour and a little oil left in the jar, and was planning to prepare it for herself and her son, so that they could “eat it and die.”

Then Elijah did a remarkable thing. He asked to her go ahead and feed him first, and if she did, her jar of oil and barrel of flour would never be empty until the Lord sent rain on the face of the earth. So she “went and did according to the word of Elijah” and sure enough she never ran out of food, according to the word of the Lord which Elijah had pronounced.

Maj. Thomas began his discourse on the power of an obedient life by informing us that “If you’re told what to do (by God) and do as you’re told, even the ravens will feed you.” In other words, when we do what God says, He provides. The participants of the camp had fun trying to quote the motto back and forth to one another. At camp, it was easy to believe in miracles.

Coming home was always a challenge to carry forth the great things we’d learned at camp. Since our coffers were thin much of the time, we were greatly impacted by this teaching. Upon returning home, when challenging events continued to occur, my husband, the consummate cheerleader, would often quote this motto to me -- “If you’re told what to do, and do as you’re told, even the ravens will feed you” -- and, he would add, “I’m an obedient sucker!” He truly was doing all he knew to do to support his family, but the pantry was getting thinner and thinner.

I being the consummate “stuffer” had stopped complaining about how low our food supply was, and one night it felt as if everything came to a screeching halt. Our Sunday School class was having its desert party at our house, which meant I supplied the house and they the goodies. I literally had nothing to feed the kids that night, but was anticipating the snacks that were coming.

Not long before the guests were to arrive, my husband came home and upon opening the refrigerator he noticed it was decidedly empty. “Whatcha feeding the kids?” he asked casually.

“Nothing,” I replied, as he went to the pantry to find it truly bare. Panic rose in his voice and face as he realized the situation.

“Why aren’t there any groceries?” he said going back to the freezer, knowing full well the money had run out. “I’ll go out and rob a bank if I have to!”

“Let them eat cake.” I replied with very little tongue-in-cheek. Then I quickly assured him that the kids could eat the cheese and crackers and fruits that were coming before I let them eat the cake. Food was on its way.

Before you judge me harshly, I had been trying to tell my husband for awhile of our impending shortage, but not only was he distracted, he had heard it all before. He seemingly had tuned me out. Besides we had been invited to a CBMC luncheon the next day and I knew we would be okay for one more day. And we did have over $25.00 in our checking account.

Sitting in church always feels safe, so we went about our Sunday morning routine, having eaten the leftovers for breakfast. When the offering plate at church came around my husband took out the checkbook and looked questioningly at me. I knew what he was about to do, and I totally approved. It was literally the last of our barrel. I felt much like the widow from the Elijah story - it wouldn’t make much difference anyway. So breathing a prayer, my husband laid his offering of twenty-six dollars and fifty cents in the plate.

Looking back, I realize how depressed I truly was during this time period. Much of the time I was just numb. At home while changing clothes for our lunch engagement, Stan found a quarter in his shorts and pulled it out saying, “Look, Laura, it’s already started.” Going to the car to scour for change for the toll booth, he came back truly excited, with four more quarters in his hand.

“It’s already multiplied 400%!” he exclaimed. “If you do what you’re told. . .”

“I know,” I interrupted, “even the ravens will feed you.” I thought he was having much too much fun for our dire circumstances. But his attitude no matter how real or contrived was contagious. Deciding not to take the toll, instead he laid the $1.25 in change on top of our sideboard so it could “mate and multiply while we were gone,” so he said.

We all hopped in the car and began the long drive to our destination, where we would be fed in return for serving on a family camp committee. We followed the directions down the side of the toll road, off onto the side roads and turned into the village until we came to a stop light.

“What street do we turn on?” Stan asked, interrupting my daze. “You have the directions. Do I turn here?” I looked up at the large green sign hanging over the cross street and down at the directions. It took a second or two to answer.

“Yes, it says to turn right on Ravensway Blvd.” and then I asked, “Is this some kind of joke?” But there it was, the biggest, greenest street sign I had ever seen. And just in case, we missed the joke, the directions continued to guide us past “Ravens Caw,” Ravens Nest,” Ravens Pass.” Well, you get the picture.

We arrived at our destination and I gave the kids their last minute admonitions to be polite, say “thank you,” punctuated with the tag “Be sure to go back for seconds!” We walked up to the door, rang the bell, and were greeted by our host who, I kid you not, had the blackest hair and beakish nose which gave him the unmistakable appearance of a raven.

Inwardly, I chuckled for the first time in a while, “So, Lord, these are the ravens who will feed us? Bless them.”

It was a wonderful day, and even though no one could know of our inward fears, I felt relieved by nice friends and good food. Going home everyone settled into our warm car with full stomachs for the ride home. Stan laid between us a small book given to him by his friend, Bruce Witt. Stan had shared with him during the day of our morning’s struggle. The book was called, Let Go, by Fenelon. “If we let go, we’ll drown,” I thought spontaneously and I began to flip through the book. As I did, money just spilled into my lap - $120.00 in cash.

“What did you do?” I asked, “Ask him for money?” How sad that the only emotion I felt in that instant was embarrassment. But looking at Stan I could see his answer. Tears were streaming down his face as he shook his head from side to side, mouthing the words “no” he did not.

“You don’t know how hard it was,” he said finally gaining his composure, “for me to put that money in the offering plate today. It was like taking food out of my kids’ mouths.”

We were at the beginning of a remarkable time of experiencing God’s grace, of getting to know God as Father in very personal and practical ways. The words of the motto from camp weren’t simply catchy, they were true. An alarm bell in heaven went off that morning when Stan offered God the “last of our barrel.” God knew of our dilemma and moved on our behalf. I believe it became very personal to God when we put the full weight of our trust on Him. Because my husband had planted the smallest seed in faith, God came in and took over.

By the end of the next week, Stan received a raise from his part-time employer which was initially paid to him in the form of a check for $1200.00. A week after that we received an unexpected refund from an insurance company for double that amount. Does God have a sense of humor? Probably, but these provisions weren’t a whim of God. They lined up with a law of God, that says the just shall live by faith, and whatever a person sows that is what they reap.


The Lesson: If you do what you’re told, and you’re told what to do by God, even the ravens will feed you. (who can improve on that?)


Sunday, November 8, 2009

Please tell me what you think (or maybe not)

We're far past the last supper, which I lovingly prepared (for the 3rd night in a row, see below). The "eagle has landed" meaning Jennie is now settling into her new nest in Dallas, TX as Jill's roommate. Everything went so well.

I'm now settled down into finishing this con-farn'd book called, WordSpeak: His Word, Your Voice. I'm about to pull my hair out! Who knew it was so hard to write a book? I thought it was perfectly finished and then the editor entered the picture and took it all apart and told me to put it back together better. Well, this is what I have to say about that . . .

Thank God for editors. She was correct about what she saw in the "perfectly penned" words I had written earlier. A lot of it needed to be thrown out, condensed and evaluated. It's amazing what we can get away with when no one else is looking over our shoulder. In the privacy of my own mind, I thought it was tre' wonderful.

Indeed, the editor praised the content highly. In fact, I had gotten quite a bit of encouragement about the book when another editor reviewed it. But, this time, I got the reader's perspective and that is, after all, who I am trying to reach.

I think there is a far-reaching lesson here. Don't we all think we are just fine the way we are when there is no outside interference? I know I did. But I am so thankful God put someone in my life to pull me up a bit short and say, "Let's think this over." Those of you who will be forced to read the book one day because you are my friends and family (because you have to!) will be ever so grateful for the scalpel-wielding editor. I believe she saved me from humiliation.

So the little lesson is this. Welcome the people who criticize you. You can't do life successfully alone. Hopefully they will have some grace to soften the blows, but consider this: maybe they are sent by God to clean you up a bit, or make you more useable, or just to polish the facets of your diamond. I have to go pray for a teachable spirit now. . .

And get back to work . Ugh.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

back to the little things

It's nice to get back to the little things I was talking about before some of the "big things" hit. This week I took the time to prepare a nice dinner for my family. It was so weird because I cook dinner most of the week nights, but this time it was different. If you begin to think that this woman is going a bit "balmy" after you read this, rest assured, I'm really okay.

But this time I took my own advice (about being careful with the little things) and decided to prepare this dinner with love. I know it sounds hokey, but there it is. My little experiment had an effect on me. I wanted to make something extra delicious and "homey" cause this is the last week my 20-something daughter, Jennie, will be with us. She is following her destiny to Dallas.

I started earlier in the day preparing a turkey dinner with our special cornbread/broccoli dish, with stir-fry veggies, sizzled with olive oil and shallots (mmm, smells so good). I wanted the smells to meet each person at the door, instead of my usual throw-it-together an hour before we eat. I find that to be stressful for everyone, and not enjoyable for me. So this time, I decided to enjoy the prep work. So, while I was working I was pondering all the good times I've had with my daughter this year, and how much I love her and appreciate who she is.

Anyway, before I get sappy, and start slobbering. . . I was sort of applying this love thing to the dinner, being careful with each dish and utensil as if this was some sort of ritual - a love-sending one. I had everything ready on time; the turkey was actually "resting" (before you carve it- 20") I was so calm and proud and expectant. But guess what?

I forgot that everyone wasn't going to be there for supper. My husband had a focus group, and Gracie came in late, so the rest of us sat down to eat, and then everyone had to dash away, leaving me with all the clean up. But I didn't mind; I was still in that zone I was telling you about, and so lovingly and carefully, cleaned and scrubbed all the dishes. Later, Jennie, came in and apologized because she knew what I had envisioned hadn't happened.

"It's okay, Jen," I told her because I was the one who benefitted from all the "love" preparations, and it still felt good. Maybe I had made the dinner to comfort me. I would be ready the next night to prepare another love feast with the left-overs when all the family could be there.

So I started the process all over again the next night. Again, I wanted it to be ready when all the troops hit home. I knew they'd be hungry. And so another beautiful dinner was ready about 6:00 (earlier than usual) when everyone hit the roost, steaming and streaming lovely smells, . But do you know what happened?

Everyone had to leave as soon as they walked in the door, one to get boxes for packing, one to get the truck and one to drive the other car home. All my family was in a "tizzy" as they say down home, and scurried away. At first I was soooo put out, and told my husband so, but then I remembered the love thing, and realized I could de-bone the part of the turkey while they were gone to make a casserole for the next night, our last one with Jen living in the house.

They all came back and we sat down together. But everyone was stressed and hungry and conflict was in the air, and the beautiful dinner suddenly wasn't so appetizing. Before you feel sorry for me though, let me tell you, my family is most appreciative of the meals I prepare. I know they recognize my labor. But here's the coolest thing. I found a little treasure in the Bible that I want to share with all the cooks out there everywhere. Our reward will go far beyond the miniscule appreciation we get for preparing the meals. LISTEN to THIS!
"Who then is the faithful and sensible slave whom his master put in charge of his household to give them their food at the proper time? Blessed is that slave whom his master finds so doing when he comes. Truly, I say to you, that he will put him in charge of all his possessions." Matt. 24:45 ff.

Ha! We cooks of the world who feel so menial will have a special place of honor in heaven. That means God notices all the little labors of love we produce in the kitchen. I think somehow God loves food. But even if that's not true, I know He has a special place in his heart for the cooks.
Even if that reward wasn't out there, I just noticed how much of a reward I got for lovingly preparing those meals this week. I felt good about myself and those I was serving. Just one of the little things that make a big difference.

So we'll try again tonight. You can be sure I'll talk to Jesus about it - I know He understands the importance of the "last supper." Stay posted, I'll let you know next week how it goes.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

A "Marked" woman

As you might have read, years ago I began an adventure of taking God at His word and standing on the promises I have found in the Bible. A different road than my particular brand of religion.
Things have gotten more personal between God and me, and it has been an adventure to say the least. So much has happen that I've recorded in my book coming out in the spring called, WordSpeak: His Word, Your Voice. Recently, a most wondrous thing has happened to me.

I have suffered with migraines for 12 years. Taking med's, seeing doc's, feeling suppressed and depressed, the whole gamut. Some of the med's lead to physical depression. So many of my days have been stolen by the nauseating vise that grips my head, at times for a week or more. I have even gotten to the point of wondering what's the use of living like this.

But not anymore.

You will have to get the book to read more of the details of the new philosophy of prayer (cheap plug, I know). But the gist is taking a scripture promise that applies to a specific problem and praying it and then declaring it over my circumstance. Recently, I began to notice a verse in my consciousness that said, "He sent forth His word and healed them"(Ps. 107:20)
so I began praying that exact verse over my head. For about 3 weeks, the verse kept floating into my conscious mind and I would simply declare it as I walked from one room to another.
"Lord, send your word and heal my head" I'd say, or "God, you have sent forth your word and I am healed." Honestly, I wasn't particularly invigorated when I said it. It's just a routine I'd gotten into.

However, a few weeks before I'd received a text message from an unknown phone# asking me how long I'd had the migraines. "That's weird," I thought, and texted back, "Who is this?"
Turned out to be a new number from one of my kids. SoI counted up the time and concluded it had been 12 years since the migraines began in earnest. But I never heard back from them.

This incident reminded me of a prayer I'd prayed this past year after I'd read the story of the woman in the Bible who was healed by touching the hem of Jesus' robe. She had suffered from hemorrhaging for 12 years and had been to many doctors, but it had only gotten worse. Boy did I empathize. But she was healed. So I did the same thing, reaching out to touch Jesus' robe like a mime, I prayed, "Jesus, you healed her after 12 years, why not me? 12 years of migraines is long enough!" I said with emphasis. But I continued to have them.

A couple of weeks ago, I heard that my son and brother, both named "Mark," had attended a healing prayer conference in Dallas, TX. At the end of the session, the teachers called out conditions to be prayed for. One got up and said, "Some woman who has suffered from migraines for 12 years is being healed tonight" When no one stood, they went on,"It's not someone here, but it's someone's mother or sister."

My son immediately reached for the phone and texted me asking how long I'd had them, but he didn't receive an text back, (even though I thought I sent it). But being moved by the Spirit, he excitedly stood up saying, "She's my mother and your sister, Uncle Mark, so I'm standing for her!"

Weeks later, I got the news from my sister-in-law who had attended the session and she excitedly said, "Laura, that was you, you are healed!" But inwardly, I wasn't so sure. After all, I had been to numerous healing lines over the past years, and had been believing God for healing all this time, only to wake the next morning with a migraine. But another day headache-free came and went, and came and went. I spoke of this to my husband and daughters, who said, "Mom, you'd better receive that." So I did, inwardly fearful of another disappointment.

A few days later, I happened to come across a book sent to me by another friend in Houston, about divine healing, but I had read them all, and hadn't taken the time to look into it. I glanced at the book which fell open to a page entitled, "Jesus healed through a Spoken Word"
The story of the healing of the centurion's servant was on the page, and I realized that the servant was healed simply by the spoken words of Jesus. The faith of the centurion who told Jesus He didn't have to come to his house, but only had to say the word, and he knew his servant would be healed. Jesus was astonished at this man's faith, and told him that the servant would be healed that day. And he was.

Amazing. I thought. And then the dominoes tumbled. The prayer for healing after 12 long years, the "act" of reaching out to touch the hem of Jesus' robe, the spoken word prayer, "He sent forth HIs word and healed me, " the spoken word at the conference, my son standing on my behalf - it all had worked together for my good. And there I sat, miles away, with no stars or lightening bolts, being healed of a debilitating condition after 12 years.

Today marked the official one month anniversary. I never remember going that long without a headache for 12 years. I have had neck aches, and odd sensations in my upper shoulders and back which used to signal an oncoming headache, but it stops right there. It's as if God's hand is on the base of my head protecting it from any more assaults. My emotions are rising, as I think of how very personal my God has been to me. To think of how precious it is to be thought of in such a significant way.

You may be thinking, "Wow, nothing like that has ever happened to me." or "That kind of stuff doesn't happen for me" but I guarantee you I thought the same thing at times. I'm telling you this story because it is so wonderful and I want to publicly thank God for healing me, and praising Him in front of you all. But also, to encourage you to press for that which you need the most. I believe He desires to give HIs children good things, but there is a lot of debris in the way. It takes time, sometimes. Plus, when pain and discouragement rides so closely along with you, you need others to stand and believe for you like I did. That's why it would be nice to hear from you, what you want to believe for, and let me and others believe for you. Let's press in together, and then we'll all be singing praises to the rafters. What do you think?


Monday, October 12, 2009

30 Days & Counting

Who would have thought 30 days ago that I would not yet have a migraine ? What I mean by that is nauseating pain radiating up and down my neck and into my left cranium. Sometimes the nausea comes first, and sometimes just the pain. But who could have known then, 30 days ago, that that would be for me a thing of the past. Certainly not I, who has experienced these persistent little suckers for 12 years. That's right. For 12 years, every week, sometimes 3-9 days in a row, I struggle to stay present in my world. Between the pain and the medication, I felt wiped out most days. When I would have a headache, everyone around me seemed to know even though I tried to hide it. They could see it in my eyes.
"Why don't you just lie down?" my exasperated husband would ask me.
Because I would answer, that would be letting the migraine win. Not to mention just robbing me of one more day of life. But that lifestyle ceased to exist 30 days ago. I can't wait to tell you what happened. But that will have to wait until tomorrow. -L

Monday, September 21, 2009

Radically changed

So much has happened since I last light-heartedly blogged. My life has changed radically since we last met. Once again, I'm believing by faith that you are there, listening, thinking, responding to these words. A journal is one thing, but a blog? It's a little scary to think about putting your private thoughts in a public sphere. But if you were here sitting around my table drinking a warm, comforting cup of brew I would be sharing this with you.

As I waited to speak to the young woman, recently widowed, I wondered what I could say to comfort her. When I stepped up to speak to her she fell into my arms, sobbing on my shoulder. My heart broke as I listened to her anguished cries and felt her toddler pulling at our skirts. "I'll never be the same again. My life will never be the same," she sobbed.

"No, you're right," I responded. "It will be forever changed." Holding her tightly like a mother should, I heard myself saying some unbelievable words, "But you are going to make it. You are going to be okay again, I promise."

How could I say these words in light of her dire circumstances? They came from deep within, from somewhere beyond my conscious thoughts. I didn't mean to say them; someone else was speaking through my mouth. Then, following quickly on the heals of the first, I heard these thoughts in my head. "Though forever changed, it will be changed for the better."

Wisely, I left these words unsaid, and like Mary, the mother of Jesus, I pondered them in my heart. All throughout the day, and the next at the funeral and burial, I kept hearing these words resounding in my soul. How inappropriate these thoughts were. "It will be better?"
The woman's husband had just taken his own life. She was left in a financial quagmire that would stagger the most astute accountant. She had three small children and no visible means of support. Thank the Lord, her husband had been in a discipleship relationship with my husband , and had actually asked Jesus to be his Savior in a parking lot with my husband only three months before. He was safe now. But I'm sure his wife had not taken that step.

All the more reason to be appalled at the compelling thoughts that her life would be changed for the better. And yet, I could not shake those words. They came from deep within my soul, from a source other than myself. I have to accept them as the voice of God.

By the time I got home that night, my husband out of town, I had no one to challenge the waves of guilt that were flooding over me. If I hadn't been so self-involved these past two years, if I had had them over into my home, entered into their lives, led this woman to the Lord, been there to show her how to pray for him, i.e. simply become involved in their lives, he wouldn't have committed suicide. I was sure of that. I hadn't done my part in this ministry of CBMC. I had been licking my own wounds, and been careless about the pain of others. Ministry had become too much for me. And someone died.

Okay, after a few days I came out of this distorted pattern of thinking that this man's death was somehow my fault. But I came out of it holding a golden kernel of truth.

I do have something to give to a sick and dying world -- my time, my attention. I may not have the answers to all their problems, but I can be there. I can show them how I pray when life overwhelms. I can share my dinner table and invite them into our lives. I can befriend those who appear not at all to need me. Because I was wrong in seeing this couple as having it all together. They appeared to be strong, optimistic, and on their way. But they were lost. No matter what they had, they didn't have Jesus in their life, guiding, guarding all the way. And I do.

A friend had a remarkable outlook on this young man's death--"His death could have more impact in this world than his life every could have." Christian businessmen are now contributing to a fund to help the young widow, and are becoming more alert to one another. A sense of community is emerging.

It certainly impacted me. I woke up to a long-forgotten truth -- My life was bought with a price. It's not I who live, but Christ now lives in me. And He is going after some lost people in this world, with my help. With my hands and feet, my limited capacities coupled with His "unlimited-ness" we can reach some who cross our paths. He needs me. What an interesting thought. It's enough to bring me out of the comfort of my personal cave.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Button, Button!



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I have to give credit where credit is due, and this blog with all its buttons and bows was created by my very talented 24-yr. old daughter. She can figure out just about anything (except perhaps her life). Blessings on you, Jennie!

Journey with me,

-L

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Things that Matter

As we breeze past summer, I am floored at how I can't seem to hold onto any season very long. I hardly even got a suntan and now we have to think about school, and pencils and paper and all the little assignments that have to be done, which is why I'm singing this mantra - pay attention to what matters.

People ask me all the time how I raised such good kids. It catches me off-guard when I hear the question, but then I started paying attention to all the little things I did that were profitable. I found it wasn't the big looming wisdom of the ages that guided my kids to do what was right, it was the little things that paved the way.

"He who is faithful in a very little thing is faithful also in much," (Luke 16:10). I've heard my husband say this so many times, and it was good for me and my kids to hear even though sometimes we felt he was nagging. When you make your bed, and put your things back where they belong, when you call people back, even the ones you want to avoid (like your mother or father), when you wipe off the counters after cleaning the dishes, when you say please and thank you, when you hang up wet towels, these are the things that matter.

For those of us who weren't trained to notice the little things, this can be annoying. Even so. . . I wish I had taught my kids more intentionally with the end in mind -- the end being thoughtful, productive people. I would have paid more attention to passing along the importance of doing the little things. Like writing thank you notes, for instance, for gifts from grandparents, or even special occasions.

Do you write thank you notes? I'd like to know what you think about that. I thought only old people cared about thank you notes. But recently I've found it delightful to hear back from someone that I have blessed in some little way. I guess that means I'm "mature." Oh dear.

Well, the good news is this - "Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master" ( Matthew 25:21). Those little faithful actions get credit in the eternal scheme of things. God notices, not to mention your co-workers and family. Hope you get my drift.

Somehow I love you, even though I don't know who you are.
Journey with me,
-L

Monday, August 24, 2009

Journey with me

Today I am posting my first blog, on paper that is. Truth be known, I have been blogging in my mind for years, talking to a phantom audience full of people who feel like I used to feel - powerless to change anything.

At least, I hope you are there as I send this first post into cyberspace. I don't send it egotistically (thank heavens for spell check), but truly because I would hate for anyone to continue to feel like I did - worthless, ineffective, unguided, undeveloped and undiscovered.

I'm writing this blog because I wish someone had told me about the basics of life and parenting. Because they didn't the insecurities flourished. And yet, after all, I have managed to raise four amazingly productive kids who serve God and seem to love Him for real. They have turned out much wiser than I. And I've managed to write a book, WordSpeak: His Word, Your Voice, being published this spring by the WinePress Group.

I hope we will get to know one another along the way. It's not good to feel disconnected and isolated. So if you do, let me know. As for now, I will share with you in small increments, the incredible experiences I have walking with God in the business of living life. Whatever tidbits I have gathered that make life work, I will share with you. That's why I wrote the book and that's why I write this blog. This blog will serve as a personal connection to those who might be as clueless as I was.

I want to leave you with this thought: Pay attention. To yourself, your feelings, your kids, and those who matter to you. That's all for now. You'll see what I mean.

Journey with me,
-L